Don't blink

Byron is breaking in front of me again. I think it might end within the next few days.

I've promised to stay his friend. He's gotten as far as admitting he needs me that much. 

I know the first thing crazy people say is "I'm not crazy". So what I'm saying is I'm not imagining everything else between us. I've been in those situations before and it's an entirely different feeling of helplessness. 

I don't feel desolate. I've been shocked to my core but I've not cried myself to sleep. It's a case of when not if. I know that. Same way I know tomorrow the sun will rise. 

But until then I can't falter. Byron wants someone as secure and confident as he is. So don't blink. That's the plan. Hold on, be his friend and don't fucking blink.